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My parents are still refusing to acknowledge my chosen name.

Had a very dysphoric night. I love them but it’s hard when they say they accept me but refuse to use the right name or pronouns. I know it will take time to adjust but being bombarded repeatedly with no attempt whatsoever to remember or correct themselves is tough.

Ah well. Heavy dysphoria = pushing myself to do anything to get it off my mind = doing art stuffs and reading crazy stuff for inspiration late at night and again in the morning when I couldn’t sleep so I guess there’s progress in some form.

Some days my body just makes me feel lightheaded and sick. Today’s one of those days.

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Hey! Made a compilation of the darkest corners of the internet.

  • Dionaea House: a horrifying story, told through two guys mail conversation, about how a haunted house
  • Page of Tedanother haunting story about a man’s experience in an uncharted cave
  • Castle of Spirits: a website with ghost stories, experiences and pictures. my mom banned me from going here because I used to freak myself out as a kid from this website
  • Deep Cave:man breaks scuba depth world record and finds the body of the last man to attempt it while down there. He makes plans to recover the body, but dies during the attempt. This is his website, as he left it, before he went on his last dive.
  • Reborn Baby Dolls: where you can buy dolls that look EXACTLY and feel EXACTLY like a newborn baby
  • Find a Gravea website where you can find the graves of ancestors or famous people, create virtual memorials, add ‘virtual flowers’ and a note to a loved one’s grave
  • This Man: a website about 1000’s of people all over the world, dreaming of the same man. Some say he’s the devil some say he’s god. 
  • Exit Mundi: a collection of end of the world scenario’s
  • Haunted Housewhere you can find any haunted house in the U.S
  • Truthism: an extremely wacko cult website about how reptilian aliens are responsible for everything wrong, how humanity is controlled by aliens and how the sun is a cube and that the inner Earth exists
  • The Jonestown Mass Suicide Death Tape: Trigger warning and you know why
  • Shaye Saint JohnThe story/myths behind Shaye Saint John is that she was a hot woman who was horribly disfigured in a car accident. As a result, she appears in public wearing this creepy mask, and hobbles along with prosthetic legs and hands. This is her website
  • SCP Foundation: collection of fictional works that its members contribute that deal with the “paranormal”. They range all the way from a television working without a broadcasting station, to deadly creatures that have never been encountered
  • Blog of Joseph E. Duncansentenced to death by a federal jury on August 27, 2008 for the kidnapping, of Dylan and Shasta Groene and murder of Dylan. He had been convicted of a sex crime years before. Go back to the beginning and read forward. You can trace his further descent into madness.
  • Annie96 is typing: a creepy chat between two teenagers that has a horrific twist at the end

Alright, I hope you enjoy. Maybe look through these one day at a sleep over with some friends. That would be fun.

Speaking of sleepovers, here’s a masterpost of creepy sleep-over games

SHAYE SAINT JOHN STARTLED ME

it’s got noise in it, really really creepy noise. Just be careful, okay?

Can I add to this list?

Click on the bolded word(s). No screamers, promise! 

This is awesome

Hey guys :)

sixpenceee here again with some more websites! Thank you for the other tumblr user that added my father’s long,long legs. 

  • TED IS GOD: a website of a guy who thinks he’s the superior overlord. Just go through it and you’ll see his ever increasing insanity. 
  • Book of Immanuel David IsaiahAuthorities believe this is the work of Brian David Mitchell, suspected of kidnapping Elizabeth Smart in 2001. Complete raving nonsense.
  • Urban Exploration Resourcea database of creepy urban exploring sites. They’ve got everything from abandoned nuclear silos in Ukraine to Saddam Hussein’s destroyed palace. Chances are you’ll find something in your own city.
  • Dan’s Gallery of the Grotesque: Okay, this site is HORRIBLE. I know I’m a paranormal blogger but I post NO gore. I can’t stand it. Maybe some corpses once in a while, but no full entangled bloody gruesome gore. But for those of you who like it, then this site is perfect for you. 
  • Time Cube: the website of a guy who claims that modern physicists are wrong and how each day is actually 4 days happening at the same time. Some bizarre things here. 
  • Last Wordsa website of cockpit voice recordings of commercial airline crashes. There are some audio but most are transcriptions.
  • Unsolved murder cases websites: Oklahoma Girl Scout MurdersKeddie MurdersTaman Shud Case 
  • Number Stations: method of communication with spies, the website contains recordings of how they do this 

So the answer to my questions is that I really need to work later and harder, even though I’ve explained my money issues and the fact that I already work late into the evening and on weekends on my SECOND job. I was told that the things I’m striving to do (illustration and storytelling) are fun gimmicks but not something that’s really needed despite the fact that when I was  hired I was told that those skills were what I was hired for. I’m so tired and burnt out and I just want to draw and make things but that is never going to happen and it makes me so upset so I’m just going to work myself to death and not think again, because I have no choice, no matter how much I want it to change.

I have two jobs to apply to but one is in a pay range I know I can’t live on so yeah

Just calculated the hours I spend on work per week (including commute and any art intended for sales) and I’m averaging over 100 what the everloving fuck man

Gotta love managers ey :/ That is one of the reasons we get taught every aspect of our profession before internships, so that we know who knows their stuff and who we can call out on their bullshit, properly. You’ll hang in there Jay, keep the fun parts in mind as well!
Ah thanks dude. Guess the most I learned was that it’s good to be in a union, but a lot of places won’t hire you if you are because they expect you to work tons of unpaid overtime.
I’ve been worried for a while over you, bro… your work schedule is absurd and even if the income is good it’s like you have no time to yourself anymore. Man I’m so sorry, nobody should have to work THIS much for such a long time
Argh thank you. It’s not good pay really, I looked up my position title online and I’m making about half as much as the average person in my position is making. But art just doesn’t pay. One of my friends has a master’s degree in art and is working in her field and she’s making less than $19k a year. It’s like we’re destined to be low income no matter how much experience and schooling we have. So I’m trying to get into different work instead of art now.
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